Hedi Tanner's autobiography  tells the story of a woman who seeks and finds her way through discouragement and loneliness. Often separated from her husband, who works as a helicopter pilot and missionary in far-away Africa, she experiences many hardships alone with her children and feels the helplessness firsthand. Doubts, fears and self-blame gnaw at her until one day she realizes that her husband could never carry out his duties without a strong woman behind him. She realizes that she was born a fighter, a spearman to protect her husband. Her name, Hedwig Gertrud, means "fighter, spear bearer". Again and again Hedwig Gertrud and her husband put all their trust and hope in Jesus Christ. Her eventful life, her marriage, her family and her work for Helimission show that God richly blesses this trust.